mostly against advice and reason,
partly because she had no real mother,
she let herself become the project of the
mother of a former lover, a woman who
declared that mother and son were one
and the same – so it was already foreshadowed
that she would be a failed enterprise.
with her therapist whispering in her ear and
freud perched in her heart, she listened to the
mother pronounce her many shortcomings
and instruct her to live differently;
until freud woke her from a dead sleep to
say he could not go on, the projection
had to stop – and she and her therapist agreed.