But what if : I
only understand how to exist in the miserable,
thrive under the duress of fear,
know unwittingly how to play victim again and again.
what if what if : I am the same, the common thread in all the stories or at least the only one I can see…
Of course : I
want to be more than the sum of all the terrible things that have happened to me,
wish to experience joy and live without fear,
believe I can make choices, come out the survivor.
Of course of course : I believe at the end of it all that I am the difference.