i looked for it all day today.
i waited patiently on a bench in the sun,
counting clouds, people.
i did not find it. not anywhere. it did not come. not at all.
i should stop looking, i guess, and
stop wishing, too.
but for an unbridled ache in my core, i would.
i peered into the sky and yearned hopelessly for what will
not come, ever.